The final amnio results came back all clear. Good news for this week. We go back in 2 weeks to meet with the team and come up with a plan of action to manage the delivery and recovery for the little one.
Initially there was maybe a moment when I thought “Why my baby?”- I have never smoked, never had alcohol, I started taking my prenatal vitamins a whole year before we even thought of getting pregnant and I am generally a happy person- but then, just true to whom I am I snapped out of it. I think ‘why me?’ is such a rotten down to go on, because life in general is sucky sometime or the other for everyone- some of them we get to know, some we don’t. We learn to deal with what we got.
After beating cancer last year I have a lot of people tell me, “He is going to be such a fighter, he has a fighter for a mom”. I hope that is true and I hope that me being happy and truthful to myself everyday will be enough for him.
I still have good and bad days. Some days I am very strong and very hopeful and some days I am beyond depressed. But I am better than what I was a week ago. Some nights I just wake up terrified not being able to go back to sleep, and I hug Avy a little tighter, and right at that minute I feel a big kick from inside me and I smile- I HAVE to be happy, my littlest one is here now, in my tummy and I have to enjoy each day I have with him and be the most positive I can for him to become the great fighter we need him to be.
So for now off to Disney World for a week- Cannot wait!!! I have to show the one in tummy on what all he needs to see after he comes out and maybe Mickey will entice him enough! 😉