I have nothing much to report except for the fact that today will go down as one of the most unforgettable day in my life, in our life. Today’s nurse Ashley surprised me with this…I GOT TO HOLD MY LOVE FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When she asked me if I wanted to hold him, I was in shock. I did not know what to say. I wanted to hold him, give him some mommy strength before surgery, but I did not want it to affect him. She said it will not. It was an beautiful hour. She said I need to hold him at least an hour. He was awake when he came onto me, and I made him sleep. It was beautiful. When we put him back on his bed, he was sleeping tight, did not even wake up a bit. It was a nice day. I will not get to hold him for many days after surgery and it was real nice for her to let me do this.
I told Ajit, that I felt guilty that I got to hold him and Ajit did not. He said since I carried him I get first dibs. Yes I do!
I hope that the surgery goes well and holding him will be a daily occurrence. Keep those prayers, good mojo, positive thoughts and whatever you can coming. Atiksh needs it all.